{"id":11848,"date":"2015-08-16T05:08:27","date_gmt":"2015-08-16T05:08:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/but-for-me-that-grand-vision-wasnt-fulfilled-in\/"},"modified":"2018-12-05T17:06:59","modified_gmt":"2018-12-06T00:06:59","slug":"but-for-me-that-grand-vision-wasnt-fulfilled-in","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/but-for-me-that-grand-vision-wasnt-fulfilled-in\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-11848 gallery-columns-3 gallery-size-thumbnail'><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/but-for-me-that-grand-vision-wasnt-fulfilled-in\/attachment\/11849\/'><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"100\" height=\"100\" src=\"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-content\/uploads\/tumblr_nt5sy3vuuT1qbup7mo1_1280-100x100.jpg\" class=\"attachment-thumbnail size-thumbnail\" alt=\"\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n<p>But, for me, that grand vision wasn\u2019t fulfilled in the movie I saw. Something was missing, clumsy, off-key. My love for the movie was qualified, something I kept private. I was certain there was more there, but the Internet that existed then couldn\u2019t fulfill my curiosity about a narrative larger than the film itself, about how it came into being and what happened along the way. This other movie became a dream, something to pursue, a key to a door I couldn\u2019t open. And sometimes I wonder if this isn\u2019t responsible for the profound, unceasing love I had for something so imperfect.<\/p>\n<p>As an example of how information about films used to move: it wasn\u2019t until the next millennium that I discovered there was a director\u2019s cut of Until the End of the World. At some point, I was given an Italian DVD of the director\u2019s cut, this version of the film I\u2019d always dreamed about, but could not bring myself to watch it. It didn\u2019t seem fair to the movie\u2019s spirit to do it that way. I had to hold out, wait for the day to see it projected in a movie theater, turn it into some sort of pilgrimage. For more than half of my life, I lived with this movie only in my head, with no copy, no way of watching it. Only as I write this do I realize how strongly it affected me. It was something more than a movie: a s\u00e9ance, vision, prophecy, a call of longing that, I can admit, changed my life. And somehow decades went by with that faint hope, but no opportunity to see it in a theater.<\/p>\n<p>(via <a href=\"http:\/\/thetalkhouse.com\/film\/talks\/music-video-director-aaron-stewart-ahn-talks-his-25-year-relationship-with-wim-wenders-until-the-end-of-the-world\/\">Aaron Stewart-Ahn Talks His 25-Year Relationship with Wim Wenders\u2019 Until the End of the World | The Talkhouse Film<\/a>)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>But, for me, that grand vision wasn\u2019t fulfilled in the movie I saw. Something was missing, clumsy, off-key. My love for the movie was qualified, something I kept private. I was certain there was more there, but the Internet that existed then couldn\u2019t fulfill my curiosity about a narrative larger than the film itself, about [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"gallery","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11848","post","type-post","status-publish","format-gallery","hentry","category-words","post_format-post-format-gallery"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6PWot-356","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11848","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11848"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11848\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11850,"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11848\/revisions\/11850"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11848"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11848"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rafaelfajardo.com\/portfolio\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11848"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}